Talking to a camera?!?!

Hey everyone!!!

I am really excited to start sharing new ventures. I am now talking to a camera, with so much happening this is going to be a great way, to show you and bring you on this journey with me. So rambles of an impatient girl is still going to be here and I'm going to try and figure out a schedule to update it so that I am being consistent in my content, on top of that ImpatientGirlProductions will have a new video weekly, sometimes there may be more.

Another great thing that I am excited to share is 1995 productions is almost ready to start uploading content and I will delve further into that venture when I can.

With great new opportunities on the rise I am stepping foot on to a bright new journey, and I am so excited guys cause THIS IS THE START!!!

Refreshed... No! Just really Stressed

I have read countless blogs about people who have given up their phone for a few days, whether unexpectedly due to it being broken, stolen or loss or out of their own free will to see what life is like without portable technology there to be at there beck and call. Now maybe I’m just looking in the wrong places but 99% of these articles I read the writer realises they rely on technology way to much and vow to reduce there consumption or have more no phone days. Saying it is refreshing to not have this thing to constantly fiddle with, that they look up more and embrace life… 

Well I unexpectedly went without my phone for four days and I have to say it was such an unpleasant, nerve wracking experience. Maybe I rely on technology to much, but this opened my eyes to how much having my phone made life easier. 

• Having no actual alarm that became my phones job (it snoozes for just the right time and I can set and turn it off with ease.)
• It’s my main source of news (as I don’t buy a newspaper or really watch the news, idle time spent on busses ect is spent reading interesting articles and finding out whats happening in the world)
• Camera (though I do have a canon dslr, I do not always have it on hand), 
• Music player (sometimes, I forget to pick up my iPod when rushing out the door), 
• Calendar (the convenience of adding things from messages, putting in specific times, and changing the view at a moments notice is all too brilliant) , 
• Notepad (I am a lover of old fashioned pen and paper, but once again convenience takes place when in a hurry, plus it means I don't spend hours looking for a pen), 
• Weather checker (one simple click, no complicated winds coming in an easternly direction at a zillion miles her hours), 
• Travel router ( you have no idea how many times I have walked to a new place guided by google maps) 
• Clock (no I don't own a watch). 

But the hardest thing about being without my phone is that I became unreachable if I wasn’t in the house or near a computer. Which meant that really large portions of the day where I was at work or college, I was not entirely reachable and in return couldn’t contact others in return, which is extremely hard, I am starting a new career which means that I need to be contactable all off the time, I also was working on a lot of stuff that meant it would be helpful be able to be in constant contact with people. But no twitter, Facebook, email, text and calls where all gone. So many ways to stay in touch and I could access none. 

And truth be told I missed being able to be tweet at a moments notice, or check out instagram, or snapchat friends. All a sign of the times I guess but these things have become a part of my life that I like. Seeing what other people upload, how people use social media to make a difference, share an opinion or just make others smile. 

I don’t know what these other people must of done on their phones to have a few days without theres be eyeopeners to the lives they were living. I felt like nothing changed, I noticed what was happening in the world just as much, appreciated the little time I spent with friends and family just as much. Only I felt hugely disconnected a lot of the time. Totally out of sync. It wasn’t some refreshing experience I expected it to be instead I am relieved to have my lifeline back.

I am NOT a morning person

Ask anyone who knows me I am many things, some good - some bad, but the one thing I am most defiantly not is a morning person. Peeling myself from the warmth of my nest in the ‘wee’ hours of the morning becomes a task that is both physically painful and mentally exhausting. 

It normally takes several alarms set and many attempts before I can even bare to remove the covers and embrace the cold. And thats not even where the hard morning ends, once the light is turned on the challenge is to adjust myself to this unsuspected brightness and make my way down the hall (which by no means is a long walk) without injuring myself severely, many a stub toe has been a result of a hazy morning. 

Then I have to will myself to get ready, make up, hair, clothes… why cant we just have an automatic machine like in futuristic movies where it just zaps and there we are perfect for the day ahead… but no here I am looking for my other shoe, how I am constantly losing only one shoe when I defiantly, without a doubt take them off together and proceed not to move them until I need them again.  

So when I leave the house half bedraggled probably a little late…. or like you know a lotta late I am in no more of a good mood and am now daydreaming of my bed once more and knowing I can’t be in it makes me a whole big irritate-able mess. Little things, tiny details that normally go overlooked suddenly bug me to no end and I have to bite my tongue more that I would admit to not snap at people who probably aren't doing anything wrong…. most of the time. 

Then comes the unstopping yawns, proclaiming to everyone that I am tired, and the little comments like you should go to your bed earlier, or where you out late last night come along, this does not help in the slightest with my annoyance with the world. 

But when I get home and can safely climb back into bed suddenly I am wide awake, unable to sleep I stay awake and content myself with series of tv shows, or a movie… maybe 5, start a book, or an ides, write, erase, write, erase, write, erase. Tweet. Eventually find sleep, and morning is here again. 

For a night owl I am but a morning person I will never be. 

Both Sides Now

Sometimes you go back to a song a hear it different each time. Thats how I feel that Both Sides Now reacts with me, it changes and adapts to fit my life, emotions, at the time. An incredibly beautiful song that has been playing on my mind the last few weeks. 

Burnt out...

Burnt out… thats one way to describe how I feel right now. It has been a turbulent two weeks, but it has also been brilliant. The stepping stones to a new life have been laid and here I am with a mountain to go burning the candle at all ends. 

It’s not all bad I am finally sinking my teeth into something I genuinely want to do, am working on projects that I will be able to share incredibly soon and its all so exciting and new. With work on the horizon  as well this new life does not seem to be slowing down anytime soon and that its just a crazy good feeling of accomplishment. 

But with all this new work added into my already hectic schedule of work and college I am more tired than ever before. Days are longer, with less down time. But its only a matter of time before all this hard work pays off… 

A Moment...

It’s late, I can’t remember the last time I had a full nights sleep or a day where my head wasn’t preoccupied with a hundred other things. 

But all I what to do is take a snapshot of this moment, to never forget what it feels like right now. After a week of emailing we met with a client, a chance encounter has let to what will hopefully be a substantial project and a quick fire email yesterday led to filming an Art Gallery Opening tonight. As well as a few more projects in the wings. Life is busy and I am struggling to believe my luck. 

So here’s a tip, no matter how hectic everything seems, take a second to just soak in the moment cause just like that its over. Opportunities are rare and you have to take chances when you can. Say yes to as many things as you can. If its what you want, go for it! The worst you can do is fail, and a little failure along the way makes it all the more special when you achieve your dreams. 

You think a door closing is going to stop a dreamer!

Where am I going?

For the last few years I have hummed and hawed over what direction to take my life in. I had been so certain when I was younger what I wanted to be until one day I was at a loss. Suddenly any and all ambition I had was gone and I was left to muddle through. 

At 16 I got my first part time job, a taste of earning my own money and proper responsibility the first year came with a lot of uncertainty, who knew that whilst I pondered over taking a gap year straight after high school peoples main concern would be that I would get to used to earning and working and not want to return to education. I was confused I knew what both were like, I also knew how tiring it could be to juggle education with work and knew that this would not get easier when it came to further education. But this didn’t repel me from the thoughts of continuing with education, it was my safety net incase I choose not to. 

It was in those vital last few months that I changed my mind and applied to college, I picked a course that caught my attention, and suddenly there I was on it. The first few months were not what I thought. But suddenly we were half way through and into the nitty, gritty, the stuff that made it real. Suddenly the year was over and though when at the beginning I had thought I would only do the one year I was certain that I would do both. 

So here I am, in second year of college and though I’m still unsure in what direction my life is going. I am beginning to take more of a lead than I seem to have in the past. Instead of waiting to see what comes my way, I am looking for new opportunities, taking chances on things I never thought I would be doing and I am happy. 

I am happy with how my life is finally shaping out. And even if I fail I can try again, nobody succeeds the first time round. Nobody wakes up to have everything handed to them. Life is a continuous fight. You have to work hard to make it what you want. 

I look forward to sharing pieces of this journey with you. More to come soon. 

Till next time!