It’s like all of a sudden the dark nights have drawn in. You
blink and its night time, and that’s it summer is over. We head into autumn
then winter once more.
With only a hundred days left in 2014 I was suddenly hit
with the feeling that yet another year had come and gone wasted. There had be
so much I wanted to do, so much I had planned to do and I feel as though I have
done nothing. Which is not true 2014 for me has been filled with many great
things which I seem to have the tendency to overlook when looking back. Months
have merged together in my mind and it feels as though things that I did in February
happened years ago.
I have been to numerous concerts, met my favourite band,
indulged in nights out, trips to the cinema, went to the Edinburgh fringe, took
a trip to London, made a music vid and that’s to name a few, I have been lucky
to have a year filled with so many highs.
With that there have also been lows; this year has
challenged me in ways I didn’t think I’d ever have to be challenged. I’ve seen
behind peoples masks and struggled to cope with the flawed human underneath.
Which sounds shallow, I guess, but when you have had people around you for so
long they accumulate a pedestal, one that they don’t deserve. No one should be judged
harder just because you have higher expectations for them.
On top year is the most unhappy I have been at work (and I
have had the same job since I was sixteen)
and I’m sure one day when I have a million other things that I’m struggling
with that I will remember my little cashiers job fondly, I will remember the
nights filled with great banter instead of the extended shifts, the can you
come in at short notice, the untold shifts but you have to magically appear for
and the other many great frustrations that come with a flexi contract. But for
now it’s a means to an end, it funds the concerts, nights out and other things
that made this year great.
So there are still 100 Days, ones that should be filled with
magic and memories. Don’t waste your time once a year is gone that it. There
are no re-dos, we will wave in another new year in filled with new promises and
fresh hope, and whatever the bad was that happened to us this year can be washed
away, left in the past, and we move on taking only the good with us.