Have You Ever Felt Like Nobody Was There // Project 365 // Day 331

Well, let that lonely feeling wash away

Maybe there's a reason to believe you'll be okay

Cause when you don't feel strong enough to stand

You can reach, reach out your hand

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I never let them see the worst of me // Project 365 // Day 330

No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I'm something other than
This mess that I am
'Cause then I don't have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see

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Noel Coward // Project 365 // Day 329

I took this trip to London with my mum a pre-christmas get away. Dear Evan Hansen opening in the West End was coincided with Les Mis in concert like a match made in heaven something for her, something for me.

But what came with that was taking her to see my beloved Dear Evan Hansen. A musical I loved. You will be found is a song that makes me cry just by playing, it helped me through a dark period. I love it.  We saw Hugh Jackman at the beginning of the year and he sang it and I cried and she didn't understand the real punch this song packs.

Describing the musical to her didn't really sell her but she was more than happy to come along and see what it was about.

Now she raves about it to all who will listen and its the greatest joy to be able to have shared this with her and for her to love it.

The music, the quiet moments, the characters.

The realism.

It's stunning.

You will cry. You will laugh and You will cry again.

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You Will Be Found // Project 365 // Day 59

Even when the dark comes crashing through

When you need a friend to carry you

And when you’re broken on the ground

You will be found

Today the pre-sale tickets for Dear Evan Hansen’s West End run went on sale, and oh my god was it stressy when the email didn’t come through at noon with the link I started doubting that I had signed up for it in the first place. I had got someone to cover the first hour of my shift. As I was meant to start at 12 so I could buy the tickets.

I got ready, was driven up to work all whilst making sure the screen didn’t go off and lose my place in the queue. My dad held my phone whilst I went through the back so I wouldn’t lose signal. And when I came back out and had to start my shift and my dad had to leave to go to work. I thought that was me I wasn’t going to get them.

I work customer facing and I couldn’t keep up with keeping my phone on the screen then purchasing my tickets.

My friend was going through the till at the time and when I poured about my predictement offered to stand with my phone for a bit. Forty minutes later they had left with my phone for a while and come back. With 10 minutes to go they stayed near so I could tell them my sign in details. My manager lurking so I couldn’t be seen to be to involved. They had my card and I watched on panicked

But thanks to some amazing people in my life who cover shifts, chauffeur me about and wait in virtual queues for me. I will be attending Dear Evan Hansen in November.  I’m so greatful and undeserving to have folk who help me out like this.

I can not convey how nerve wracking the wait or elating the moment when I finally got the tickets was.

xoxo

All We See is Sky For Forever // Project 365 // Day 54

All we see is sky for forever
We let the world pass by for forever
Feels like we could go on for forever this way

- Dear Evan Hansen - 

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