Monthly Motivation: Looking Back and Moving On

I recently realised that this is the first May in five years where I haven't had exams or graded unit. And if I had remembered that at the beginning of the month that may have felt more freeing. Thinking about it now, I realise what bad connotations I have of the month, previously they have just been stressful and left me a wreck. 

This year though May was a place for old things to start a new. I have really tried. I’ve worked hard on old friendships, of people who I would like back in my life properly. And its been good. It's been really good

I’m also trying to work on things that I enjoy more, I’m filming my week so that I can spend some proper time editing. I missed editing. And this time last year I was probably saying the opposite because I was working towards a dead line. 

Its fun to look back at the week, see what I’ve filmed, see how I can improve my filming and editing techniques and then just release it out there. 

And though I still need to do more things for me, instead of just letting myself procrastinate, thats a problem to move forward with. 

This May will be looked back on positively, there were moments where I struggled but to be honest this month has had so many highs, and as we move into June its already shaping up to be a good month (though June is historically a good month for me)

Looking back has it's uses as we move on, it helps us grow, heal, change. Getting stuck in the past leaves us bitter, hurt, and unready to move on. And as life only moves forward you have to be ready to keep on keeping on. 

Monthly Motivation | Holding On and Letting Go

March has been a weird one. I wanted to be so productive but was struck down by a cold/flu type where I lost my voice and all my energy for a large portion of the month as well as having to work a lot more than I had initially expected. 

So when I decided to gut my room I didn’t realise just quite how long it would take. Or that I would still be here at the end of the month trying to get everything done.  

I was re-evaluating everything that I have kept over the years and what was my reason for doing so I was being ruthless. I’m a not so secret hoarder everything has a memory or an emotional attachment and I can find a reason to keep all most everything… a reason to not let go.  

I’m a lot like that with grudges and friendships. I don’t let go when I should, I don’t hold on when I should.  

So when I was re-evaluating the baggage that was clogging up my room, I began to re-evaluate the baggage that was clogging up my mind. And to properly let go of things. as well as to try and hold on to others whilst I still could.  

It’s a hard process somethings are just to hard to let go of all together, somethings need to be put back in the box for next time.  

But in the end you feel lighter, like a huge weight has been lifted from you. And yeah it might take a little longer than you thought and it might be a little harder than you’d imagine. But you’ll get there and so will I. 

Pick yourself up!

“No amount of falls will really undo us if we keep on picking ourselves up each time. We shall of course be very muddy and tattered children by the time we reach home. But the bathrooms are all ready, the towels put out, and the clean clothes are in the airing cupboard.” -C.S. Lewis

There's a lot of times in life where I thinking giving up is just the easier option, that somethings are just to difficult  and not worth it. It means instead of seeing things through to the end there are a lot of unfinished projects in my life.  

I may have decided something was to time consuming, or I no longer wanted to do it. Or I had stumbled, fallen at a hurdle and didn't want to carry on. 

But as long as we continue on the ending will be worth it, the journey will teach us so much more about ourselves. Open up a new part of our personalities. The destination will be comforting reaching a goal that you previously thought you would never get to.  

I have three things in my life right now I want to see through. One is short term and two are long term goals. I am determined that no amount of falls will determine who I am!

Motivation Monday

Deviating from the normal Music Monday, as I have to do this quick and wanted to get something g up. Totally disorganised and have a million things to do, I don't know when life will stop being busy or if I even want life to be less busy. 

There is so much I want to accomplish and motivational sayings have been a driving force to get me through some days!