It Was the End of a Decade // Project 365 // Day 365

I've done it.

There are 365 photos from my year ( a couple from previous years).

What a weird wild ride this has been. I really found myself this year. I found my voice again, with it my strength. And I plan to forge on.

I realised the only person I have ever lost and needed back is myself.

I have loved so much of the year and I am a competly different person from the broken person at the beginning of the year who was unsure of every step she was taking and taking them anyway because she felt that she had to.

2020 will become my year on intention. 2019 seemed to happen by accident.

I've needed it.

All years have there mixtures of good and bad, ying and yang this year wasn't without it. But I'm feeling positive.  It was all needed for these lessons life is giving me.

So we end a decade as we leave this year.

Time for a new chapter.

xoxo

Under the lights // Project 365 // Day 364

almost done.

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Save The Date // Project 365 // Day 363

It's a year to go, until my friends wedding.

I adore her Save the date which I'm currently using as a tree decoration.

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Blurry Life // Project 365 // Day 362

It's that strange point between christmas and new year.

who knows the date and time.

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Sugar Rush // Project 365 // Day 361

Ever look at something and need a filling.

Thats this cocktail.

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The Fool // Project 365 // Day 360

last night I think I drank too much, Christmas does that to you.

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Though its been said // Project 365 // Day 359

merry Christmas to you 

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Lets Get Drunk On Christmas // Project 365 // Day 358

Well, the longest nights all year

Deserve a little cheer

So find some mistletoe

And drink some cider, wine, or beer

Let's get a little bit drunk

It's time to party til the morning

Let's get a little bit drunk

It's fine on Christmas Eve

xoxo

Paint the Town Cold // Project 365 // Day 357

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Hoot the Redeemer // Project 365 // Day 356

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It's a Hoot // Project 365 // Day 355

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Party Chariot // Project 365 // Day 354

Hoot the Redeemer, is another little quirky spot in  Edinburgh that I completely recommend you try with a 50's Cinema vibe. Alcoholic Ice Cream Machine, Claw Machine full of Cocktail ingredients for a bespoke drink the place has a lot to offer.

The staff are lovely and helpful and its a great spot to take a photo or fifty.

xoxo

Midnight Train to Brooklyn // Project 365 // Day 353

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Private Detectives // Project 365 // Day 352

Once Byrant and Mack now Bullard and Worth Private Detectives Club, is one of my favourite haunts in Edinburgh a small intimate venue with small quirks and a great atmosphere.


When you arrive you may be put off by the exterior that looks like it is in fact uninhabited, you must knock on the door to be welcomed inside. Where you will be seated and brought menus as if there were cases you were looking over. As you now are a Private Detective going about your business in the dimly lit bar.

Next time your wandering about Rose Street I very much recommend giving this place a look.

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Whats Your Beef ? // Project 365 // Day 351

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Life asked Death // Project 365 // Day 350

Life asked death
why do people love me
and hate you
Death replied because
you are beautiful lie
and I am a painful
truth

a ver merry Christmas 

to you 

xoxo

Irresistible // Project 365 // Day 349

It's one more shot of whiskey when you're already drunk

And you should go home but you know that you won't
You're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't
it's irresistible

xo

Views // Project 365 // Day 348

Hotel room views.

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Lil' Break // Project 365 // Day 347

At the end of November I took my friend away for her birthday that wasn't until the 11th of December. Mainly cause we both work in retail which makes December birthdays hard.

So we grabbed a little overnighter in the Capitol.

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Duke of Wellington // Project 365 // Day 346

cone head ?

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All the Fun of the Fair // Project 365 // Day 345

I love carousels. Like there's something about them.

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The Ivy // Project 365 // Day 344

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We Need A Little Christmas // Project 365 // Day 343

There's something magical about donning everything in lights in December, it sort of makes the mad dash to get everything sorted a little more bearable.

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St Pancras // Project 365 // Day 342

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Kings X // Project 365 // Day 341

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Harrods // Project 365 // Day 340

This place is a maze, a frustrating maze.

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Oxford Street // Project 365 // Day 339

I took my feet

To Oxford Street

Trying to right a wrong

Just walk away

Those windows say

But I can't believe she's gone

When you're still waiting for the snow to fall

Doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

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We've got Tonight // Project 365 // Day 338

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Perspective // Project 365 // Day 337

no one sees what you see
even if they see it too

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Covent Gardens // Project 365 // Day 336

feeling slightly festive...
just slightly

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Mistletoe // Project 365 // Day 335

Grey fake plastic mistletoe
Wrap me in a great big bow and tear me apart
It's Christmas time so open up the flood gates
Tell me that it'll be late and rip me apart

xoxo

Light the Way // Project 365 // Day 334

Let the festive season commence.

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Big Red Bus // Project 365 // Day 333

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Holidays are Coming // Project 365 // Day 332

t'is the season
its always the real thing

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Have You Ever Felt Like Nobody Was There // Project 365 // Day 331

Well, let that lonely feeling wash away

Maybe there's a reason to believe you'll be okay

Cause when you don't feel strong enough to stand

You can reach, reach out your hand

xoxo

I never let them see the worst of me // Project 365 // Day 330

No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I'm something other than
This mess that I am
'Cause then I don't have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see

xoxo

Noel Coward // Project 365 // Day 329

I took this trip to London with my mum a pre-christmas get away. Dear Evan Hansen opening in the West End was coincided with Les Mis in concert like a match made in heaven something for her, something for me.

But what came with that was taking her to see my beloved Dear Evan Hansen. A musical I loved. You will be found is a song that makes me cry just by playing, it helped me through a dark period. I love it.  We saw Hugh Jackman at the beginning of the year and he sang it and I cried and she didn't understand the real punch this song packs.

Describing the musical to her didn't really sell her but she was more than happy to come along and see what it was about.

Now she raves about it to all who will listen and its the greatest joy to be able to have shared this with her and for her to love it.

The music, the quiet moments, the characters.

The realism.

It's stunning.

You will cry. You will laugh and You will cry again.

xoxo

The World Was Wide Enough // Project 365 // Day 328

Death doesn’t discriminate
Between the sinners and the saints
It takes and it takes and it takes
History obliterates
In every picture it paints
It paints me and all my mistakes
When Alexander aimed
At the sky
He may have been the first one to die
But I’m the one who paid for it

I survived, but I paid for it

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Victoria Palace // Project 365 // Day 327

We had a spare night in London, So I took the chance to go see the masterpiece that is Hamilton again.

How I love this show.

I cried again.

Honestly everything happens at such a pace that I don't think it would matter how many times you watched the show you'd see something else. You'd concentrate on another performer in the scene.

xoxo

Do you Hear the People Sing! // Project 365 // Day 326

When the beating of your heart

Echoes the beating of the drums
There is a life about to start
When tomorrow comes!

xoxo

Gielgud // Project 365 // Day 325

Les Miserables is one of those musicals you could watch a thousand times. And still pack a punch.

The all star stage concert boost some of the west ends brightest stars. I was unfortunate to attend an evening where both Michael Ball and Carrie Hope Fletcher had taken ill. But there alternates pulled off an amazing show and I'll be able to see there performances at some point as they recorded the performance.

Alfie Boe has a voice that has no need for a microphone. He could hit the back of the theatre with pure power alone. It sends shivers down your spine. Absolutely magical.

Matt Lucas has the comedic ability that is needed for Master of the house and plays the role as if it was made for him. An absolute presence on the stage.

Oh what a show. I have now seen, West End, Broadway, Amateur, Film, Concert. Now All I need is touring and new West End.

xoxo 

London, My Love // Project 365 // Day 324

This city takes its toll, it leaves you wanting more, declaring you're done.

Seen it, been there, ready to explore other horizons.

Yet pulls you back, makes you miss it.

London, my love.  Let's enjoy our few days together.

I'll call again next year.

xoxo

Oh the places you'll go // Project 365 // Day 323

you've got brains in your head
and feet in your shoes.

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I don't know if stars get lonely // Project 365 // Day 322

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It's beginning.... // Project 365 // Day 321

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Onions have layers // Project 365 // Day 320

Onions have layers

Ogres have layers 

Cities have layers. 

Probably 

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There are bridges // Project 365 // Day 319

There are bridges you'll cross that you didn't know you needed to cross until you've crossed. 

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The Realisation of a Lonely Wolf // Project 365 // Day 318

They say its better to be a lonely wolf

than a popular sheep

I don't care to change my opinion 

to suit someone else's narrative 

But yet at night I still lose sleep 

and through the day I lose my mind 

Maybe I'm the problem 

maybe its me 

there's a trend at hand 

and all the results point 

at me

When the world falls to shit around you 

and your looking for 

someone to blame

do you ever look 

inwards

do you ever think 

hey 

xoxo

I wrote this in a completely different mind set at the beginning of 2019 and its amazing to see how much my views now contrast. you gotta see the dark to appreciate the light. 

Your Shit is YOUR SHIT // Project 365 // Day 317

Just incase you need to know
your shits your own
its not mine
or the guy standing next to me
or some bloke in the bar
you own that

xoxo

This City's Yours // Project 365 // Day 316

Glasgow has been a favourite spot for me throughout this project. I live somewhat nearby so its been an easy one for me to access and try out. I've discovered it from so many angles, hidden spots and unforgettable views.

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