Farewell April // Project 365 // Day 120

We are now wrapping up April and venturing forth into May.

I'm Excited for all I have planned this month and it should be a really good one, with some concerts and travel there is much on the road ahead.

April has been a grafting month. I've been working hard and hopefully this will finally reach some pay off.

For the first time ever I have truly appreciated spring and all it brings with it. And though tiring April has challenged me and left me striving for better prospects.

So cheers.

xoxo

This Gal! // Project 365 // Day 119

This Gal

On her first day of in 11 days 

Woke up early 

Worked out 

Went for a swim 

Walked a mile 

This Gal

Is now a little tipsy 

Cause lunch 

Turned into cocktails 

But the suns been shining 

And life’s alright. 

xoxo

Exhausted // Project 365 // Day 118

11 days 14 shifts later and I'm exhausted and instead of switching off the alarm tomorrow, Its set nice and early for me to go to the gym.

I'm getting into a routine of waking up early so there's no point in wasting good habits and struggling when I return to work.

But I am done in. Hopefully a good nights sleep can cure me.

xoxo

The Road Home // Project 365 // Day 117

The road homes nice.

But I’m restless and I’m looking for that ticket out.

A new city to roam.

Wander through another town.

xoxo

Is Their Life Out There // Project 365 // Day 116

I'm currently on an 8 day streak of working without a day off which has included three split shifts and has two days left to go.

I haven't done this kinda crazy shift work in a while and I feel a little run ragged.

After a disastrous end to 2018 I decided that every week I needed at least one day off... not a big ask but I go a little crazy sometimes.  To have a break and realise there's life out there.

This year because I have set myself this 365 goal, I have realised that there is so much to do with days off and I constantly feel like I don't have time to do all I want to do.

So being constantly trapped within the same monotony is a little killer, especially when I have made major strides this year in making time for myself and creating boundaries.

Next week when I have time off I will be back to exploring and discovering what else is out there. For not my restless spirit will have to settle with the fact that the money I'm earning is going towards some further a field travels coming up.

xoxo

You Don’t Bring Me Flowers Anymore // Project 365 // Day 115

Ever walk past something that really requires further explanation, but whatever story you make up in your head I defiantly going to be miles best than the truth.

I passed these fake flowers on top of a palette just before the close that takes you to the high street from my work.

I genuinely laughed out loud when I seen it.

There was nobody about.

But somebody has to have placed it there.

xoxo

Are Ye Askin? // Project 365 // Day 114

... Am askin... Am dancing...

xoxo

Are Ye Dancing? // Project 365 // Day 113

...

xoxo

End Goal // Project 365 // Day 112

I gave up the glorious bank holiday weekend, where the sun shone consistently, with  highs of 25 degrees to spend it shut in at work.

I am drained, I don’t have a day off for another week. Have just completed 5 shifts in which two were split shifts and I fee like I have done nothing but work, come home got to sleep, wake up got to work.

But I’ve got end goals in sight.

I can push through this to make it there.

xoxo

Simple As This // Project 365 // Day 111

One of my resolutions was to go to more gigs this year and I’ve got quite a few coming up in a couple of weeks. So though I’m stuck inside during these glorious days. I have so much to look forward to just around the bend.

Sometimes it’s this simple things.

xoxo

This Day // Project 365 // Day 110

This day probably tore me apart
And I didn't even know it

xoxo

S U N S H I N E // Project 365 // Day 109

The Sun came out today and without the wind chill it was glorious. A great start to what is to be a lovely weekend.

And then I am couped up in work I am still grateful for the good weather. I work with the public and having the weather be good for a change makes everyone so much more positive it’s great.

The world seems more positive when the sunshine comes out.

xoxo

How’d it get so Late so Soon // Project 365 // Day 108

How’d it get so late so soon. 

xoxo

G L A S G O W // Project 365 // Day 107

Ain't no yellow brick road running through Glasgow

But I found one that's stronger than stone

Ain't no place like home

xoxo

You Can’t Pour from an Empty Cup // Project 355 // Day 106

Today I felt emotionally, mentally and physically spent. The weekends nights out and works early mornings are taking its toll and I really needed to catch up on my sleep. 

After skipping going to the gym after work I felt defeated but honestly just longed to be at home. My body ached, my knee was playing up and I mentally couldn't push myself further. 

I crashed in my bed and slept for what felt like forever and was in reality only an hour, I woke up panicked wondering why my alarm wasn't going off, cursing going to work. It took me a minute to get my bearings and realise that it is intact the afternoon and I don't have to go to work tomorrow. 

It was a realisation of how drained I am, and that you can't expect more from yourself when you are not properly recharging and resting yourself. 

You can't pour from an empty cup.

xoxo

Fresh Air // 365 Project // Day 105

Some old fashioned things like sunshine and fresh air are hard to beat...

xoxo

Spring Awakening // Project 365 // Day 104

I love Autumn. I need Winter when it comes and am glad to be rid of it when it goes. I wish for longer and warmer summers. This is the first time I’ve ever really appreciated spring.

Spring in all it’s glory. The world reawakening the colours coming out once more.

It’s all so hopeful.

xoxo

B L O O M // Project 365 // Day 103

 There’s something undeniably positive about the reawakening the world has when spring comes around.

When plants finally start to bloom we seem to also come into our own. Out of the winter slump excited for the summer to come. More motivated than we’ve been.

xoxo

E V E // Project 365 // Day 102

How did eve end up with all the blame anyway? 

xoxo

Find me in the Foliage // Project 365 // Day 101

Wandering now the days are getting warmer is really refreshing. Spring is springing. The world is getting into a flow.

xoxo

Believe in Yourself // Project 365 // Day 100

When I embarked on this project I wondered how many days I would actually make. Discarded diaries, and various other projects led me to have serious doubts in my ability to keep up with a challenge, I had set myself, and without meaning to I had set myself up to fail.

But 100 days in nearly a third of the way through, I haven't missed a day. I go out of my way to explore more with my camera and I have pushed myself to keep up with it. But most importantly I enjoy it.

Researching places to go, wandering about with my camera, take pictures, looking at things differently, editing and uploading. Is really enjoyable though somewhat stressful when I can't thing what to caption.

So what I'm saying is believe in yourself, believe you can do what you want to do, put your mind towards it, and just do it.

I'm going to link some of my favourite posts so far for you all to check out.

1. Miles Out of My Comfort Zone

2. I'm Letting Go

3. The Universe and Me

4. I'll Never Send and You'll Never See

5. Holding on and Letting Go

xoxo

Bad Start // Project 365 // Day 99

A bad start really wrecked my day, I struggled to motivate myself afterward and found myself  feeling really lethargic. 

I have been attempting to make sure recently that bad moments don’t last the whole the day. Sometimes that doesn’t follow through. Some days it’s a knock on effect from start to finish. 

Today was a bad one. Tomorrow will be better. 

That’s how it works 

xoxo

All The People Start to Rush // Project 365 // Day 98

Reality can be a kicker sometimes.

xoxo

Meet Me Outside // Project 365 // Day 97

This little set up gave me a giggle as I walked passed it.

I like to imagine that someone put this to use when they saw it waiting for them. But reality is that it's probably just being chucked out.

Oh well.

xoxo

I'll Give You Stars and The Moon // Project 365 // Day 96

"I'll give you stars and the moon
And this soul to guide you"

One of my favourite things about wandering around glasgow, is that quit often when the sun fades you will find yourself under a blanket of twinkly lights. 

There's something about fairy lights, that make everything appear better and more magical. 

xoxo

Piano Man // Project 365 // Day 95

"Sing us a song, you're the piano man

Sing us a song tonight

Well, we're all in the mood for a melody

And you've got us feelin' alright"

As I explored the Lighthouse in Glasgow, I entered the viewing room, floor to ceiling windows give you amazing views and in the middle of that sits this colourful piano.

The entire time I was in the room this guy just sat and played away. It was really lovely to see it put to use. Especially as I don't play.

xoxo

The Book of Love // Project 365 // Day 94

“The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb“

I love Vinyl Records, I’ve had a really chill day where I lazed around my room ignoring the lost of tasks I should have been completing with different records spooning on the turntable and the sun beaming in the window. 

I have a vinyl Instagram, so go take a gander at some of my records over there 

xoxo

Better to // Project 365 // Day 93

 “Better to die on your feet than

Love forever on your knees”

xoxo

You've had your Chance // Project 365 // Day 92

I have a bad habit of thinking the best of people. Because most of the time I am an overly honest person I expect others to be the same and because of that I give one to many chances.

Today I found out that I'd been lied too, and another version of the story had been told to someone else to better suit there narratives, to make them come out more positively.

This has happened a few times over the last months,  people will make you out to be a bad guy to make themselves feel better about what they did to you.

I am quite willing to accept blame when the situation calls, but I'm not prepared to be a scapegoat because you fucked up.

I quite literally can't cope with that anymore. If you aren't prepared to be honest and deal with situations openly and without trying to throw someone else under the bus then leave the situation. Don't bother yourself in the first place.

I don't know why behaviours like this continue to shock me.

xoxo

Let the past be the past // Project 365 // Day 91

I’m still learning to go back and re-read my own chapters

Without feeling like I want to set all of my pages alight 

- E.V ROGINA -

I was trying to find a specific memory card last night and in trying to find it came into contact with a lot of footage I haven’t had to deal with in a while. That I will need to sort at some point. 

History is a weird thing, you can have all these shared experiences with people and suddenly they can mean nothing. Or a mistake can be made  and it can tar your whole perception of situations. 

I’m trying to let the past be what it is. Let the happy moments not be tarred by the present. Let it not effect the future. 

It’s all a work in progress. 

 xoxo