Well November ended with a bang, it was like for a moment, a fleeting moment, my life might actually be alright and something good was happening. The month was filled with catching up with old friends, spending time with new ones, things at work weren’t great but the people made up for that, things that had been on hold for months were finally going forward. It seemed like life was finally moving. Then it didn’t and it really hurt more than I care to admit.
Here’s the thing with life sometimes, the bad can greatly overshadow the good. It eclipses it, you know that the light is there but it seems so little. Thats life. And yeah you should be thankful about the good and focus on positivity.
Sometimes you just need a moment, be sad about it. Your allowed to hurt, your allowed to be angry or frustrated and not see the glass as half full. Your allowed to be tired.
I felt all these things, I felt so much anger and I continue to find it hard to let go of all of it, such a short time has passed and the cut its still raw. I’m hurt and thats the one that I don’t want to resurrect to the surface I don’t want people to see me hurt, and thats silly its a human emotion, It's what I feel, but its like its too much for people to see that. I’m frustrated I'm in the same old state of life I’ve always been in and I so desperately want my life to be moving forward. And I’m so, so tired of everything being a fight. And yeah I want to give up.
And its ok to feel that.
But know its time to take those feelings and use them, they can’t stay inside and eat you alive because then you lose. And in moments like these you can’t lose. You can’t give up.
Every time you fall down, every time life knocks you down. You need to pick yourself back up and continue.
You need to tell life your not done yet. That this can’t be the path for you and your off to find another road that will lead you to your goal.
Because whats for you will not go by you.
And yeah you may take a minute cause yeah sometimes this shit that life throws and you gets a bit heavy and you just need a second to breath.
Just a second, because life is happening and you’ve just got to keep on keeping on.
Look around in your life and see the people who are good for you lean on them for a second go out for a drink, have a chat, grab a waffle and a hot chocolate, go to the pub quiz. Know
that in the bad you don't have to be alone that the burden is not yours and yours alone.
Don't let life setbacks to completely eclipse everything brilliant that is going on around you.
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